“The Watch Four” to Watch For!
This is not an overnight matter. It should continue for our lifetime. Continue to watch for selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear. When these crop up, we ask God at once to remove them. We discuss them with someone immediately and make amends quickly if we have harmed anyone. Then we resolutely turn our thoughts to someone we can help. Love and tolerance of others is our code. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 84)
This passage is an overview of the process we are to learn to do at Step 10, but this is actually a brief overview of the way we are supposed to live year to year, day to day and minute by minute.
There is a brief process listed here that could be more detailed or more complicated, but what is listed here does a great job of summarizing it. These things are not to be relegated to just a process, but are supposed to gradually become the way you live.
This passage lists a process; the process is just stuff until you take action. Once the action is taken it is supposed to be repeated constantly. Once the process has been repeated constantly for a period of time it will become a habit. Once a habit has been with you long enough it transition from a habit to a part of who you are. It becomes a part of your lifestyle. It is a part of who you are. That is the goal.
Lets start by looking at the process briefly outlined in this passage:
FIRST, we continue to watch for negative and destructive thoughts or actions. If you are at Step 10 and working your steps as outlined in the Alcoholics Anonymous book, you probably have a good idea what destructive thoughts and actions are most destructive to your life and those around you. The authors also included four that are often common to us working through recovery:
Even if you have your own personalized list, these four should be included. We will call these “The Watch Four.” These are the things that you are supposed to be on watch for at all times. These (along with whatever other items you may list) are indicators that you are about to unleash crazy in your world or that you have already been unleashing crazy in your world. If you are watching for these and see that one has begun arising in you, you are in deep trouble. That is why it is imperative that you keep watch.
NEXT, you have to know what to do if you are watching and one of these crops up. Before you respond or act in any way or even give all of this too much thought, STOP! Ask God to remove the destructive thought, attitude or behavior on my part. It does not matter who else is involved or what is going on, first I must stop my own crazy train.
AFTER ASKING GOD call, visit or somehow discuss whatever you have going on with someone helpful. That means someone who is at wise enough to use common sense, far enough in recovery or in life not to give you stupid advice and strong enough to tell you the truth (even if it will make you angry).
Too many people look for advice from people they already know will agree with whatever stupidity they are thinking or who won’t say anything they don’t want to hear. It is helpful if you can find a few that have been through this process properly and understand.
The point is to test your thinking and get an outsider’s perspective and guidance. For that to happen you need to be actively looking for these people and discussing this with them before something happens. Then, when something like this comes up, these people will be expecting your call or visit and will know exactly what you are expecting. (maybe you can prepare them by showing this to them)
AFTER TALKING TO SOMEONE, you need to take action to change. If there was another person involved, you probably owe him, her or them an amends. If this is the case do not put it off, do all you can to repair the situation as soon as possible. Try to do anything you can as fast as you can to undo your part of whatever happened.
ONCE YOU HAVE MADE AMENDS focus on intensively working with someone else who is struggling with addictions, alcoholism or whatever you are struggling with. This is the best way to deal with this sort of struggle (along with the other parts of the process).
PRACTICAL EXPERIENCE shows that nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics. It works when other activities fail. This is our twelfth suggestion: Carry this message to other alcoholics! (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 89)
Not only is working with others part of getting immunity from destructive thoughts or actions, working with others is part of ensuring immunity from relapse.
This is the way we are to deal with the negatives and destructive things that enter into our lives. I did skip one point from the passage on page 84 until now. It is four very important words:
When these crop up… (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 84)
We are not discussing something that might happen, we are talking about things that will be trying to creep back into your life at every turn. At first all of this may seem tedious or annoying. After you do all of this long enough it will just become normal and seem less and less of a tedious effort and eventually just become the way you think.
The point is to stop letting ridiculously foolish things from pouring out of your life or to stop holding in ridiculously foolish thoughts and feelings and deal with these things. This is all a huge part of learning love and tolerance and these things are the code of all things Twelve Step.
Learning to live like this is change and change is what recovery is all about. Like I always say:
IF YOU ARE NOT CHANGED YOU ARE THE SAME AND YOU CAN EXPECT THE SAME RESULTS!
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