Bitterly discouraged, he found himself in a strange place, discredited and almost broke. Still physically weak, and sober but a few months, he saw that his predicament was dangerous. He wanted so much to talk with someone, but whom? (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 154)
Of course he couldn’t drink, but why not sit hopefully at a table, a bottle of ginger ale before him? After all, had he not been sober six months now? Perhaps he could handle, say, three drinks – no more! Fear gripped him. He was on thin ice. Again it was the old, insidious insanity – that first drink. With a shiver, he turned away and walked down the lobby to the church directory. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 154)
But what about his responsibilities – his family and the men who would die because they would not know how to get well, ah – yes, those other alcoholics? There must be many such in this town. He would phone a clergyman. His sanity returned and he thanked God. Selecting a church at random from the directory, he stepped into a booth and lifted the receiver. (Alcoholics Anonymous pgs. 154-155)
In recovery and in life discouragement and discouraging situations are just a part of the normal ups and downs of what it means to be alive. Everyone on earth has their bad days and bad seasons of life. That is not a question. The problem is not that there are discouraging periods of life, the problem is what we do to manage our discouragement during those times.
Do we sit and feel sorry for ourselves and gradually drift into enough misery to make life intolerable. Do we get a bad attitude and try to take control of the situation or just to make other people feel the pain we feel. These are major problems for those of us in recovery. Both of these and many other possibilities are in reality evidence of us sinking into ourselves, selfishness and self-protective behavior.
Selfishness – self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 62)
In other words our natural response to being down and discouraged is to sink deeper into the worst and most destructive part of our problems and in effect make our problems worse. Being down and being discouraged are not the enemy, our responses to them is the enemy. Sinking into self-protection and self focus are the biggest enemies.
As a first thought, the passage at the opening describes Bill W. as needing someone to talk to. That is an excellent place to start: Someone to talk to who will understand and be supportive. The lifestyle of a person who desires to remain sober and not absolutely miserable requires some kind of support system that you can turn to in these kinds of times.
This is one of the deep purposes of what we call “support groups”: Support! If what you are calling a support group does not offer you this kind of support either you are not connected enough in the group or it is not the right “support group” for you.
These kinds of groups are something you find and maintain. These are people you see regularly and have some level of personal connection with. These are people that care about and care for one another.
These are also something you want to find and maintain before you are bitterly discouraged so that when those periods of life arise you know exactly where to go.
Secondly, Bill became interested in helping another person.
Practical experience shows that nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics. It works when other activities fail. This is our twelfth suggestion: Carry this message to other alcoholics! (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 89)
As part of seeing the root of our troubles as self focus we find that one of the tasks that is most helpful in overcoming a self focused period is to focus on helping another person. Think of the passage as reading this way: “Nothing will help you more with being self focused as helping someone else.”
A key to what you read in the story Bill W. is telling is that he understood this so much that when he was just about to use because of it, he stopped and actively engaged in searching for a person to help. He desperately sought out a person to help as combat against his sickness rooted in selfishness. To use the recovery language of today, he went on a desperate search for someone to sponsor.
This kind of mindset/attitude was the mark of the first groups and is still described in the materials as a major part of what makes us able to remain sober. Dr. William D. Silkworth describes this kind of attitude as one of the most noticeable aspects of the early groups that made them different from other recovery groups and programs.
We feel, after many years of experience, that we have found nothing which has contributed more to the rehabilitation of these men than the altruistic movement now growing up among them. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. xxviii – 4th Edition)
Altruism = the attitude of caring about others and doing acts that help them although you do not get anything by doing those acts: (Cambridge Dictionaries Online)
Altruistic = showing a wish to help or bring advantages to other people, even if it results in disadvantage for yourself (Cambridge Dictionaries Online)
The idea that selfishness and self-centeredness were at the root of our problems was combated by creating an environment of unselfishness and teaching the individuals to care about and help others.
So the idea is that an unselfish support group and unselfish actions are the best way to overcome discouragement, depression and our addictions and alcoholism.
Near the end of the program portion of the book you find the following paragraph:
Still you may say: “But I will not have the benefit of contact with you who write this book.” We cannot be sure. God will determine that, so you must remember that your real reliance is always upon Him. He will show you how to create the fellowship you crave. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 164)
If you cannot find the kind of support system described here, then you may have to search out the individuals and “create the fellowship you crave.” If you are in one of those periods of discouragement, you may have to go out and find someone to be helpful to. In either case you need to be out looking for all of this before you run into the times of discouragement so you are prepared for those moment when (not if) they come up.
Stay sober my friends…
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