To Be Selfish Or Not to Be; That Is The Question!!! Part – 2
Selfishness – self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg 62)
If you are in recovery self-centeredness is a challenge that needs to be overcome. As I stated in the previous post (To Be Selfish Or Not to Be; That Is The Question!!!) I personally define selfishness and self-centeredness as:
The erroneous idea that I must be comfortable at all times or must do everything in my power to be comfortable. If something makes me uncomfortable, something must be wrong with that thing.
If you are the friend or loved one of a person in need of recovery you are probably well acquainted with the fact that that person is concerned with his or her own comfort at the expense of others including you.
In the last post we explored that self-centeredness, but what does the desired objective look like. What does a person free or well on the way to being free of self-centeredness look like?
Here is a conversation from the “Working With Others” chapter of the Alcoholics Anonymous book instructing us how to describe this to a potential newcomer:
Outline the program of action, explaining how you made a self-appraisal, how you straightened out your past and why you are now endeavoring to be helpful to him. It is important for him to realize that your attempt to pass this on to him plays a vital part in your own recovery. Actually, he may be helping you more than you are helping him. Make it plain he is under no obligation to you, that you hope only that he will try to help other alcoholics when he escapes his own difficulties. Suggest how important it is that he place the welfare of other people ahead of his own. Make it clear that he is not under pressure, that he needn’t see you again if he doesn’t want to. You should not be offended if he wants to call it off, for he has helped you more than you have helped him. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg 94)
Notice how unselfishness is the message. The person trying to work with the potential newcomer first describes how unselfishness actually is a huge part of helping yourself. Then that person describes how the biggest reward he or she is looking for is for that potential newcomer to get better through gaining the same unselfishness.
In other words the message is that if I want to help myself I have to get you to get it and to help others in the same way.
Life will take on new meaning. To watch people recover, to see them help others, to watch loneliness vanish, to see a fellowship grow up about you, to have a host of friends – this is an experience you must not miss. We know you will not want to miss it. Frequent contact with newcomers and with each other is the bright spot of our lives. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg 89)
Notice the words “to see a fellowship grow up about you.” The “host of friends” and the people you will watch recover are the people you work with. Getting outside of yourself and helping others to recovery becomes “the bright spot” of your life.
Working with others is not the only evidence of unselfishness, but it is a very key one. That is why this statement is true:
Our very lives, as ex-problem drinkers, depend upon our constant thought of others and how we may help meet their needs. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg 20)
Practical experience shows that nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics. It works when other activities fail. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg 89)
I understand that there are people who do not get the unselfishness aspect of all of this and do some attempts at working with others (usually because he or she feels forced). What I am talking about looks and sounds more like this. (if it is you going through recovery this is a feeling you should experience that becomes a part of who you are):
While I lay in the hospital the thought came that there were thousands of hopeless alcoholics who might be glad to have what had been so freely given me. Perhaps I could help some of them. They in turn might work with others.
My friend had emphasized the absolute necessity of demonstrating these principles in all my affairs. Particularly was it imperative to work with others as he had worked with me. Faith without works was dead, he said. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg 14)
It was a feeling and thought that Bill W. had and his sponsor reinforced. Working with others is one of the key evidences that a person is at least growing in unselfishness. For those of us who have traveled Alcoholics Anonymous circles we are probably at least somewhat familiar with what are known as “The Promises.” Listen to this part of “The Promises”:
No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg 84)
The death of selfishness is a huge goal in for all of us looking to remain sober. As we come to see that our experience can benefit others we “lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.” Then “Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.” (Alcoholics Anonymous pg 84)
If you think you have reached some major milestone in recovery (finishing a program, someone says you have finished all the steps, you are abstinent currently and feel fine) and you do not feel or think in the manner described here, there is much more to do. You seem to have missed something.
If you are the friend or loved one of person who has reached one of these milestones and that person has no desire to reach others, that person is in deep trouble.
Here is an end note for the friends and loved ones. If the person does get this change of focus and begins to focus on working with others be as supportive of those efforts as you can. Do not hinder their work with others or you may be choking the life out of that person’s recovery.
The following passage was written “To Wives” bit applies to all friends and loved ones:
Still another difficulty is that you may become jealous of the attention he bestows on other people, especially alcoholics. You have been starving for his companionship, yet he spends long hours helping other men and their families. You feel he should now be yours. The fact is that he should work with other people to maintain his own sobriety. Sometimes he will be so interested that he becomes really neglectful. Your house is filled with strangers. You may not like some of them. He gets stirred up about their troubles, but not at all about yours. It will do little good if you point that out and urge more attention for yourself. We find it a real mistake to dampen his enthusiasm for alcoholic work. You should join in his efforts as much as you possibly can. We suggest that you direct some of your thought to the wives of his new alcoholic friends. They need the counsel and love of a woman who has gone through what you have. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg 119)
- To Be Selfish Or Not to Be; That Is The Question!!! (wadehrecoverynetwork.wordpress.com)
- Is Your Recovery Pointless? What is the Point? (wadehrecoverynetwork.wordpress.com)
- Recovery: Change of Heart, Thought and Attitude (wadehrecoverynetwork.wordpress.com)
- The “Decision” to Take Step 3 (wadehrecoverynetwork.wordpress.com)
- “The Watch Four” to Watch For! (wadehrecoverynetwork.wordpress.com)
- Are You Willing??? (wadehrecoverynetwork.wordpress.com)
- Only 2 Alternatives (Part 2) (wadehrecoverynetwork.wordpress.com)