The New Year’s Change
I have since been brought into a way of living infinitely more satisfying and, I hope, more useful than the life I lived before. My old manner of life was by no means a bad one, but I would not exchange its best moments for the worst I have now. I would not go back to it even if I could.” (Alcoholics Anonymous pgs. 42 – 43)
A new “way of living” is central to any idea of recovery. If you stay the same, act the same and think the same you will end up with the same results. If you do not change, you are the same and will end up getting the same results.
Here is the math:
THE SAME = THE SAME RESULTS
DIFFERENT = DIFFERENT RESULTS
Any hope of recovery must include an acceptance of the fact that you need to be okay with the idea of being an entirely different person to get different results.
This is a great time to look at this concept. We have just passed through New Years after surviving the Mayan Apocalypse and those of us in the United States having survived a quick tumble over something called a ‘fiscal cliff” and here we are.
With the New Year, many cultures have the custom of making new resolutions, commitments or changes for the next year and for those of us in recovery this can be used as an important part of our recovery process as change is recovery.
Some changes may be simple commitments: A person who has been in recovery circles and never seriously worked Steps may commit to actually working the Steps this year and find two or three people to ensure that happens. Some people might have that one or two things that they have excluded from discussing when working their steps previously, such individuals might commit to working on those things this year (and call a couple of people you could meet with today and start discussing those things with – or you won’t really do it). Some, who may have never done so before, might commit to sponsoring others this year and contact two or three others who are good sponsors to walk them through the process.
The ideas are endless. Now that I have you pondering this idea, let’s slow down and look at some of the changes founding member Bill W. did when he got started:
My wife and I abandoned ourselves with enthusiasm to the idea of helping other alcoholics to a solution of their problems. It was fortunate, for my old business associates remained skeptical for a year and a half, during which I found little work. I was not too well at the time, and was plagued by waves of self-pity and resentment. This sometimes nearly drove me back to drink, but I soon found that when all other measures failed, work with another alcoholic would save the day. Many times I have gone to my old hospital in despair. On talking to a man there, I would be amazingly lifted up and set on my feet. It is a design for living that works in rough going. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 15)
I use this passage because this brief summary gives both the good and the bad of this commitment to changing. There were some negative results of his using that didn’t magically disappear with abstinence from using.
Bill W. was sober and helping others be sober (as well as starting Alcoholics Anonymous) and working recovery yet the world around him was far slower in the process of accepting his sobriety which meant during this whole period of sobriety he couldn’t find any work.
This is important, because many of us in recovery start changing and then get frustrated by the fact that people around us treat us like the scum of the earth or like the village idiot no matter how much we change. Some of us get so frustrated that we just give up feeling that it doesn’t matter: “No matter what I do my life is not going to get better” etc.
Let me help all of us with a fact: YOU CAN ONLY CHANGE “YOU”. YOU CANNOT CHANGE OTHER PEOPLE! The changes that you are making start with “changing you” and the damage each one of us has done to the world around us is not in as big of a hurry to change as we need to be. No matter what is going on around us, we have to still do the changing.
It is not a matter of if there will be problems, frustration and discomfort, it is a matter of how well you push through when the problems, frustrations and discomforts come up that is key to your recovery. If your efforts to change cannot overcome these times, then your recovery can only work in times when there are no problems, no frustrations and no discomforts. In other words, your recovery will not work.
There will be problems and a big part of the change is continuing to change and maintaining the changes that you have made already through the worst of times.
A big part of the changing that Bill W. did was working with others.
Practical experience shows that nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics. It works when other activities fail. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 89)
Working with others is tied to his being able to hold on through these first tough times. This is not an option, this is a must for all people working something that you are claiming is a Twelve Step program.
For any Twelve Step program, working with others who are struggling with what you are struggling with is central to making the whole thing work. Not just working with other however; “intensively” working with others like yourself.
In the case of Bill W. on page 15 of the Alcoholics Anonymous book, he went searching for people to work with.
I am astonished, by the amount of people desperately seeking to have the sponsees come to them. Understanding that “intensively” working with other people is at the core of any hope you have of changing and staying sober, waiting for sponsees to come to you is like sitting around waiting for recovery to just happen to you. As if there is some recovery fairy that will magically show up, wave the magic recovery wand, sprinkle the magic recovery dust on you and all will be fixed.
Recovery is something you struggle desperately to get and so are those you work with:
Helping others is the foundation stone of your recovery. A kindly act once in a while isn’t enough. You have to act the Good Samaritan every day, if need be. It may mean the loss of many nights’ sleep, great interference with your pleasures, interruptions to your business. It may mean sharing your money and your home, counseling frantic wives and relatives, innumerable trips to police courts, sanitariums, hospitals, jails and asylums. Your telephone may jangle at any time of the day or night. Your wife may sometimes say she is neglected. A drunk may smash the furniture in your home, or burn a mattress. You may have to fight with him if he is violent. Sometimes you will have to call a doctor and administer sedatives under his direction. Another time you may have to send for the police or an ambulance. Occasionally you will have to meet such conditions. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 97)
I am not promising you some easy time of magically changing as you plod along each day playing recovery in some meeting or other. I am bluntly saying that change is hard work particularly in the hard times including in the key area of working with others. FACTS ARE FACTS AND THAT’S THAT.
What I am hopefully doing is properly preparing you for the cost of changing and showing you a truthful view of what the honest hope of sobriety costs.
The good news about complete change is that what makes you happy will change also which means you will be made happy by things that right now you cannot imagine would make you happy.
Many times I have gone to my old hospital in despair. On talking to a man there, I would be amazingly lifted up and set on my feet. It is a design for living that works in rough going. (Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 15)
If you do this long enough as intensively as you can eventually it will be the thing which lifts you up and keeps you on your feet. It will be your joy and stability in the storms of life as well as in the quiet times of life.
Getting back to the point; as each of us begins on the path of walking through a new year, let’s all set a new course for change. I put these ideas out there to contemplate as each one of us process what that might mean.
Make a plan for what you are going to do on the path to change this year, involve others (people with good sense and strong enough to confront you if you are not following through) in keeping you on course and accountable to your commitments, and start on the whole thing before you close your eyes to go to sleep tonight.
In conclusion, I wish you a Happy New Year. Not in the sense that I expect that magic fairy dust will fall on you and joy will miraculously fall upon you (that is called being high and never really ends well). What I mean in “Happy New Year” is: May the efforts you are putting into finding change and the joy of sobriety be rewarded with a joy you have never known before and may that joy be passed through you into the lives of many, many others you encounter.
We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves. (Alcoholics Anonymous pgs. 83 – 84)
Stay Sober My Friends;
The New Year’s Change
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- Recovery #1 (sallytudor.wordpress.com)